Love

I love myself so much

That I can love you so much

That you can love you so much

That you can start loving me.

Rickie Byars Beckwith

Random Thoughts - Just strolling along with you...

First, I want to say thank you to Se'Lah and Anyes for hosting such a fabulous and beautiful Random Acts of Kindness for World Kindness Day!  Kindness is everyday, all day, and I'm so grateful these ladies brought it forth in my consciousness.  Thank you ladies!  I will continue to share my Random Acts of Kindness here in Operation You!

This is my second year of graduate school and I've had some ups and downs and all arounds!  But, I must say that I'm grateful for this challenge.

When I decided to go back to school, I didn't ponder on the idea.  Sure, the idea passed me like the wind a few times during my undergraduate years, but I thought,  It's just a fleeing thought. 

I believe it was a Tuesday, and this day, I had been buried in work.  Just like a baby who takes her first breath, the wind pushed through my lungs.  I gasped for air and said, "I'm going back to school," just like that.  I opened an internet browser on my computer, searched for my school, and applied.  I knew I would get accepted.  I knew that money wouldn't be an obstacle even though I didn't have any.  I accepted and it came to pass.  Thank God!

Now that I'm here, I'm glad I didn't take the time to ponder on the idea of attending graduate school or else I may have talked myself out of it.  It's a lot of work, but I know it's all for a purpose, and that purpose is to allow the Divine Presence to express through me.  It's all about lifting others. 

Today in meditation, I received this understanding:  Releasing and letting go years of a trained ego that fed on doubt, worry, lack and limitaiton, and fear allows me to see the complete opposite.  Now, I know what IS and has been since Creation. I must affirm the truth daily so I don't re-visit my old thought patterns.  Love, faith, peace, abundance, and truth allows me to close my eyes and walk toward the light just by knowing it and feeling it.  I'm walking with a smile on my face.  Sheer joy!

Bliss is at your heart.  Please accept it and smile with me.

Random Acts of Kindness - Recognizing Her

I am not sure why I drove through Zaxby's, a high-scaled fast food restaurant, on my way home from class.  I got out of class the usual time of 9:15 pm and proceeded on my standard route when I pulled into Zaxby's.  I thought, Vickie, you are not hungry and you don't eat this food so why are you pulling in here?  I scanned the bright menu and ordered a small fried pickles.  This should be interesting.

At first, nothing stood out about the young woman at the drive-through window.  I gave her my last $10.00 for my $2,00 bill, all the money I had.  She stepped away for a few seconds and an understanding began to brew inside of me; she is love and she needs to hear it.  She came back to the window and stretched her hand almost inside my car window.  I looked in her eyes.  She looked in her mid-thirties and her eyes were deep with heavy black eye shadow and eye liner.  The woman seemed to use the dark make up to hide the entrance to her soul.  Her eyes didn't look spooky, but almost unworthy. 

"May I ask you to keep the change?" I said.

 

She said, "Why?"

 

"Because I want you to have it."

She questioned my intent through her eyes and said, "We are not suppose to take tips."

I said, "This is not a tip."

Again she asked, "Why? Is it because I'm always here working?"

"I've never been here before," I said.

She said, "I don't understand."

I agreed, "Me either, but I want you to have this because I want you to remember that you are beautiful.  You are special.  You are here with a purpose - a great purpose.  And don't let anyone or yourself tell you any differently.  You deserve this [..money] and so much more.  You deserve Good.  So, don't be afraid to receive it.  Ok?"

"You are making me cry," she said in a soft voice as she wiped the tears from her eyes.

Tears also filled my eyes and I became honored to be in her presence. 

She returned to the drive-through window with a much larger container than what I paid for.  The blackness around her eyes smeared a bit, but I did see the light of her soul perhaps because I looked for it.  It has always been there.

"Thank you," she said.

I said, "No, thank you.  You have a wonderful evening and beautiful life."

She nodded as tears fell down her cheeks.

I drove away thinking about what happened.  Immediately, my ego wanted to question my intent, but I wouldn't allow it.  The awareness within me recognized that I didn't have time for my ego to talk me out of the action I took.  That's the beauty of listening within.  When we are in constant communion with the Divine Presence, we are able to express the Divine Presence without a thought.  It just happens.

Something GOOD beyond me knew what she needed and I accepted that.  I recognized the beauty, the peace, the love and the joy that is in all of us, and in her and I'm thankful and grateful for the opportunity to have recognized it in her.

This is my Random Act of Kindness.

Sponsored by Se'Lah over at Necessary Room and Anyes over at Far away in the Sunshine.  They are hosting their version of A Random Act of Kindness day.